The Most Truth You Can Get Out Of Love

I have felt so many kinds of loneliness in the past year.
The kind that make you tear up cause you realize you spend
too much time wondering how someone thinks about you, when
that person really doesn't care a damn the same as you.
I've felt the kind of loneliness where you're sitting at a table with
a huge group of people, and still feel like the only person there.
I've felt the kind that makes you curl up in a ball in bed, weeping
at the thought of being alone.
Like you want him back, only because he was there. And now in
his place is no one, nothing.
I've felt the kind that makes your insides hurt and your heart ache.
It's supposed to go away with time.

But it doesn't get better. Some days it's less than before
Some days you'll find a song that'll make you forget about it
for awhile. It makes you smile and fills you up from the inside out.
Some days you wish you could hold onto those days.
Cause there'll be days where you feel the opposite.
Days your heart just can't fit your body.
And your mind asks questions you can't bear to answer..

It's such a whirlwind of emotions, Being alone..
It makes you so happy and then kicks you. so hard.

Sometimes im so ready for life to begin.
Marriage. Kids. Career.
Sometimes even imagining it gives me chills.

I'm starting to wonder if maybe the most fundamentally real
reason anyone settles down.. Is to curb those earthquake emotions.
Maybe we just don't want to be alone?
We don't want to feel like this, we don't want to worry about
Running out of time. Or love.

Maybe the most truth you can get out of love, is the fact that it doesn't last..