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gone.

Another move.. another dissapointment

So,

my time at the restaurant has come to an end.

Starting Monday, I've been transferred to the Head Office.

Completely different environment, completely different people.

Completely different job.

I must admit, i'm really upset.

I'm upset that i had no warning, i had no time to prepare myself for this complete change.

They've changed what i do, what i've done for the last year.

They've changed the best job i've ever had.

I am so uncertain as to how it's gonna go from here.

Whether i'll be able to adapt.

I've stayed this long for a reason.

By doing this, they've taken away my reason.

I love this place, i love the people i've met.

I've been stressed, challenged, bored, angry, irrational, sad.

I've done so much here, given so much of myself for a year..

i dont know how to take this with a smile.

I have though, learnt enough to know not to give up,

even though giving up looks so good right now.

I know that change is inevitable, and i cannot undo this change, their decision.

I have no choice here.

I do see it as an opportunity to go back to school.

I need this degree, i need it so i wont keep finding myself in this situation anymore.

I dont want to be stuck. I dont want to have no options anymore.

I found out after work, yesterday.

Today is my last day here.

The weather is perfect, the full windows are open in the closed Wine Bar.

The wind is amazing and my shoes are off.

I'm going to miss this place.

Yeah, this is my wish.

My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to be.

That your dreams stay big, and your worries small.

That you never need to carry more than you can hold.

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too.

11:11

I'm gonna rant a little. okay alot.

11/11/11 just passed by.

Catching the clock at 11:11 usually makes me really happy. any day of the year. I am absolutely one of those people that believes in it whole-heartedly and i make wishes with all my might. So obviously it meant alot to me to make that day a special one.

You can understand how frustrating it is to see negative and hateful comments on it from people who really should not be saying anything at all. I mean, seriously, if you dont believe in it too, do you really need to bring everyone down with you?

When Steve Jobs passed away the world was in mourning, Mac user or not.

The ones who acknowledged the fact that he truly did change the world.

It sucks to see such arrogance from every direction.

"He was a human being just like everyone else, i dont see what the big bloody fuss is about"

Seriously, guys?

The ignorance that comes from these people astounds me.

Have you ever come up with a system that changed technology? Have you ever done ANYTHING to make your name a household one? Will the world remember you when you die? Have you dedicated your life to a single idea that morphed into something so big that generations to come will be using from YOUR idea. your goals. and your dreams?

No. you havent. so you cant possibly imagine it coming true. and having the world live off your dream.

Having a good percentage of the world awaiting your next idea. hanging on to them and feeding off them.

You have never given hundreds of thousands of people jobs, all over the world.

You know nothing about what it takes to become that powerful, to have changed so many lives.

You know nothing.

But with that single comment, you prove that you think you know everything.

That you think you have the power to determine who deserves to be remembered and who does not.

With that one comment, you have proven that for every man that has the ability to surpass negativity and the people who never believed in him enough to reach his dreams and beyond, there will always be hateful, spiteful, jealous and most of all IGNORANT people who will try their best to crumple thoughts and disprove achievement.

Making a wish at 11:11pm- on 11/1//11 is believed in by people all over the world. I am one of them. The biggest wish ever. the kind you make with all your heart. your eyes are closed tight. and your channeling every belief system you've ever had. Yes, i do that. and many many other people did too.

It is NOT your place, as a disbeliever, to tell me i am wrong. or to tell me I'M ignorant. or to tell ANYONE else they are. Why? because you do not KNOW. you dont know anything. this is my belief against yours.

No one is forcing you to make that wish. No one.

If we're going by literal concept, you're going to say that believing in it is like believing in the unseen, unproven.

WHY THE HELL NOT?

Whoever said it was not okay to believe in the unproven? Did anyone ever make it ANYWHERE by NOT trying something unproven? think about it. WHERE WOULD WE BE, if everyone sat back and let things happen. Never trying anything not done before.

and even if that wasnt so!

Does it affect your life in any way at all? Does it mean that if i make a wish, your day gets worse? No.

it really doesnt.

You say the world needs less people who believe in stupid, childish things like this.

Can you come up with a justifiable reason WHY? who are these people hurting, and why does it hurt YOU?

What the world really needs asshole, is less people who insult other peoples beliefs for the sake of having a good one-liner added to their list of insult accolades. The world needs less people who open their mouths when it's not needed, when all it does is hurt other people. Your negativity does not prove your point. Your negativity does not make ANYONE feel better, except you. That makes you selfish. All you're really doing, is trying to take away from what other people believe, you take away from their happiness. And just to make someone else feel stupid, to feed your sick need to prove your negativity ? THAT is gross.

That makes you absolutely disgusting to me.

Your disbelief does not change the minds of believers.

You're insulting people you THINK are ignorant, not realizing how ignorant it makes you to us.

There are people who believe in different things then you. all over the world.

It is NOT your place and it is NOT your right to tell people not to believe in something THEY DO. or to even chastise them for it. We do NOT deserve to be called stupid, or wrong.

Dont be a hero. You cant fight them all.

I'm not saying the wish i made at 11:11 is going to come true. Hell for all i know, you might even be right.

But i believe it MIGHT come true. that's enough for me.

That's the difference between a belief and a FACT.

you are what you wear.. on your feet

When it comes to my feet, i look most for comfort. I wont say beauty cause i tend to favor the unfavorable in a sense?

I go for the brightest, weirdest colors and i dont even care if they match.

Most of the shoes i wish i could live in, are really not feasible to wear here in this god forsaken hotland where fur goes to DIE.

okay so, if i could.. i think those ones up top would make me happier than a monkey.

Just as important as a real one

Next week is my invisible pretend birthday.

Blanket fort and presents and the most fattening food.

THANK YOU.

Todays Letters

Dear Mister, Today you asked me for a full list of all the Jodi Picoult books i currently own. You do already know that she is my absolute favouritest bestest author like..EVER. You constantly surprise me with awesome gizmos and your effort astounds me! But please, she has 18 books and i have 7. dont go overboard all at once, you hear! Dear rain, i permed my hair on Sunday. Please dont play with my heart and frizz my hair like you always do. Dear boss, no thank you for working me to the bone all last week and for being too busy to follow up, i could have spread my work out over last week and this one instead of rushing it all out last week. Dear heart, don't beat so loud.

Today, i'm going on a date after work. To have my favorite chicken noodles. dig it.

Dress your man.. well.

Men always talk about how much more difficult it is to dress up for them then it is for women. and I suppose that's true... to a certain extent. It's sad that in Singapore, the majority of guys that tend to dress noticeably better than most, tend to be the guys with the most...money? Its hard to find the time and money to dress.. really well here.

When i research on this in let's say.. the states? I've found that a pretty awesome shirt or a really swell tie can be found for like.. 2 dollars.. they've stores and just as many men's style clothes as there are womens.

It's amazing really.

If i could dress my man every day, i'd do this.