Dear God

I'm so thankful for the past couple of weeks.

It's so easy to let yourself get bogged down by all the small things so determined to bring you down.

It's so easy to allow seemingly unattainable goals help you fall into a pit of self pity.

I'm so thankful that i prayed for strength during a really dark time.

I asked you for some hope and peace during wartime in my head.

I was exhausted, and hurt and angry that everything was going wrong, i was confused about the future and everything i wanted up to here. And like everything else, you heard and unlike so many others, actually listened.

Thank you for letting me feel sorry for myself, for hitting bottom cause it made me realize that it got me nowhere, really fast.

I'm so thankful for my work. For the job i've had for the longest time i've ever had one.

For how it challenges me and frustrates me, for how it makes me wanna give up

and makes me wanna do better all at the same time.

I'm so thankful for the people i've met here, the friendships i've forged.

I'm so thankful for the key around my neck, for the freedom and support my family showers me with, every day. I know i bitch and i whine and i rant about them, but we are solid as a rock. and i know there are millions who have not been so lucky.

I'm so thankful for music. It lifts me and helps me, every single day of my life.

The power that comes with listening to a song and letting it move you to tears, or giggle in the bus all alone, or kick off your shoes and dance around the office is nothing if not god-like.

I'm so thankful for the words i manage to write. for being able to express anything i need to articulate in a sentence or two. For reading a phrase and letting the words form a mountain of thought so deep it brings tears to my eyes.

I write because there is a voice that will not be still, no matter how silent.

I am so thankful for words.

Thanks.

Tess