I'm drawing on patience this time.

It's so easy to take advantage of the things we don't really see.
when you allow those thoughts to eat away at you and morph into resentment.
There's no simple way to stop feeling the way you do, it is never an easy task to act differently then you feel.
Which begs the question, how do you stop..feeling this way then?

Look around, we're surrounded by ugliness.. evil.
Every single day, war happens. and famine. manipulation, un-appreciation.. death.
We are left to pick up pieces we dont have the strength to carry.
In the midst of the heartache, we are still here and we are still left breathing.
If nothing else, that is is the rub.

For every woman who lets anxiety get the best of her and turns into a pushy self-entitled brat, there is another woman waking up somewhere with a smile on her face, happy to be alive. There is a gray area in-between. They could be the same woman.
Circumstance.

We're allowed to feel the way we feel, it's our ID. It is what it is and it is what makes us tick.
Circumstance, human interactions, the emotional psyche.
These have the power to keep us thankful
or break us completely.
Every single person is born and raised with certain attributes that will never go away. Remember when you got angry at that thing, that time, the one your friend laughed off.. and you tried but couldn't too?
That's your id. That makes you who you are.
We are all entitled. to feel exactly the way we do.

Most people have specific goals in mind.
Money. Fame. Fortune. Love
They determine success individually.
All that crap people say about how one man's trash is another's mans fortune.. it's all true, isnt it?

There are traits in myself I've never been good at changing..which is not to say i dont try. just maybe not hard enough..
I can be lazy, irrational, unfair, greedy, selfish, proud, impatient..
Every bad situation or circumstance draws on one or more of these attributes you already have..
they fight to gain control over another, at any point.
I sometimes try to make everyone in my life think the way i do.
It's a battle i fight every day to accept. That i cannot. It is just..not possible.

In every horrible situation or circumstance, we hunt down acceptance.. in every little nook and cranny.
We look for reason, we search for a deeper meaning and we find excuses for ourselves as to why we cannot..
Why it's not working yet.
There is always a reason and there is always a fight left.

So we live, laugh, love.
We accept what we can.
Everything else will have to wait,
we will have to wait for it..