Again a Thursday

It's been awhile. I do apologize. Work has been taking up most to all of my time lately.

Despite barely having a life anymore, there's still so much i want to do this year..

I wanna travel so bad. Somewhere with a really awesome beach..preferably clearwatered..

I wanna rent a Villa for a few days. Some place really quiet. With an empty beach and a good book.. Jacuzzi at night, preferably under the stars too. That'd be sweet. In fact, just any time away from work right now would be sweet. Being here so much is stirring up feelings in me one should not have towards the workplace. :/

I wanna finally start redecorating my room. Maybe create a little corner with a couch somewhere.. I would like to have a space to sit and smoke and think and write.. I want a little lamp in the corner, a bean bag, some black and white art on the wall.

I also would really really like a self-made bookshelf. Something rustic and antique-ey looking. Wood. Oh boy, the ideas i have for this room of mine.

I want to cook amazing things. Pastries and cakes and meals for my family.

I just want to do more now. I'm not satisfied with working every day and not having a single ounce of spare time to think of anything else. It's been bugging me and truly, only getting worse. Trying to be happy every day is only making me miserable and I desperately need out of this rut.

I need a things that make me happy post. Be back in abit.

Ps: As i am writing this i'm sitting at the outdoor deck of the restaurant and there is a little boy throwing absolute EVERYTHING on his table onto the floor. I really would like to cut his ponytail off and beat him with it. Or his mother who just refuses to take him out.. or give him some attention.. or club him with her spoon.